#custava eu ser igual a todo mundo e odiar ser ace no começo e aceitar hoje em dia

[bat-the-misfit]

ok some rant under the cut and me being acephobic to myself

it's funny how usually when people find out they're not straight they get in denial and pretend they're straight and some time later they accept and love who they are

it's being the opposite with me lol when i found out i was asexual in 2017, i was so happy and proud and i would think about being asexual 24/7 and be so happy bc of it

but these past two months i started hating being ace. i hate being ace so much. i hate that i'm not allosexual like most people. all my romance problems would be solved if i was allosexual bc society ties romance with sex even if both are two different things.

idk i just can't help but feel envy. it's so easy for them to date. i never dated anyone bc all those dudes were all allosexual and i wouldn't force myself to have sex with them just to make them happy. that would kill MY happiness.

i fucking hate being asexual so muuuuuch and idk how to get back to the "i love being ace" state again 😭